Many times, people seem to think that when you have a miscarriage, you just lose a baby and move on from it. But, you don’t just lose a baby that you never knew. You lose celebrating all of their firsts. You lose all of the birthdays. The graduations. The weddings.. so much loss.
Today, I would be planning a 4th birthday. Every year, I feel a weight when we enter the month of April. Time has made it easier to bear. However, time will never fully take it away. I will never be able to forget. Nor would I want to.
Our baby was so very wanted and loved in those 12 weeks and in all of the weeks that have followed.
Even though my heart is heavy today, I am going to chose to celebrate that little life and the big impact that was made on me. I’m going to celebrate that those little eyes have only known the face of Jesus and the wonders of heaven.