We spent the weekend and early part of the week in Michigan, if that wasn’t obvious from my last post. No, we aren’t moving back. Scott’s former boss invited him up to preach like he did last year during the pastor’s vacation, and he happily and excitedly said yes. We’ve been looking forward to it since we found out that we were going. That church and those people were so good to us. They are some of our dearest friends. Really, they are family.
This trip was so good for us. Our family has been through a lot over the past several years. It was really good to get away and recharge, even if it was only a couple of days.
We spent most of Saturday in the car traveling. We took the girls to a park to play and get their energy out after eating dinner. Sunday, we excitedly got ready for church and spent the day being overwhelmed with love. I already shared about Monday in Port Huron, and Tuesday was another travel day. We did a pit stop at the camp ground where Pastor and his wife were vacationing and spent a few hours with them. We love them dearly.
Getting to step back into the ministry role and being reminded of how much we LOVE doing ministry was so good. That– full time ministry– is our end goal. So many people act shocked when we say we aren’t staying where we are. I mean, if the Lord opened a door here, then we’d follow His leading. But, full time ministry is the end goal.
We know that we are where God wants us right now for this time. But, we also are incredibly unsettled because we know it’s not permanent. It’s a very confusing place to be. It’s a place that you truly can’t understand without living it yourself. I have always said that my responsibility as a mother is to make everywhere we are a home for our girls. In ministry, moves happen frequently, and nothing ever feels truly settled. I want our home to be the landing place where we and the kids feel safe and comfortable. I’m not sure how successful I’ve been at that. The girls do talk about missing the places we used to live… other than our tiny apartment. No one has missed that. haha!
I guess that is part of what I love about homeschooling. Even if we move in the middle of the year, their school is the same. Nothing about that changes for them. It’s the one thing that can be a constant. (There is so much more that I love about homeschooling, but that’s just a perk.)
Something that has surprised Scott and I the most is how much we actually miss living in Michigan. Maybe it’s that all of our babies were born there. Maybe it’s that we have spent most of our adult lives there. Maybe it’s the fond memories. Or, maybe is just that it’s SUCH a beautiful state. I don’t know. But, if God opened a door to go back there (hopefully in a much safer area) we’d be thrilled. I am always up for a new adventure though. I love exploring new places, and that’s the fun side of moving. Packing is the pits, but discovering new places and making new friends is such an adventure.
I have no clue where I’m going with this. I’ve just had so many thoughts flowing through my brain this week. I’m grateful to be near family. I love them a ton. But, I am also restless for what God has next. I’m working on just being present in the exact moment that God has me in. I’m here for a reason, and God will open the next door when it’s time. I need to focus on what He wants from me TODAY. I want to be faithful in every moment.
I waited patiently for the Lord;
he inclined to me and heard my cry.
He drew me up from the pit of destruction,
out of the miry bog,
and set my feet upon a rock,
making my steps secure.
He put a new song in my mouth,
a song of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear,
and put their trust in the Lord.
Psalm 40:1-3 (ESV)