20 weeks pregnant

How far along? “Ooooooooooohhh Halfway there! Woah, livin’ on a prayer!”

Baby is the size of: I get tired of this food garbage.. baby is about 10 1/2 inches long from head to heel

Total weight gain: Still not sure. I am trying to not step on the scale too much this time..

Maternity clothes? maternity pants and a few maternity shirts

Stretch marks? My sister suggested I remove this.. I think she is right. I couldn’t possibly count how many I have to know if I get more!

Sleep: junk

Worst moment this week: A well-meaning person at church telling me that I should not be carrying my child around.. and a cranky pregnant self wanting to scream when people are bossy to pregnant ladies.

Best moment this week: We ordered the glider rocker, Chloe’s homeschool curriculum, and a “big-ger girl” booster seat for Chloe. I feel really accomplished and am actually checking things off of my mile long to-do list.

Miss anything? Not having to check how much caffeine I am consuming. I have a three-year-old, two-year-old, sleep horribly and am pregnant. How is it fair to tell me that I can’t have my usual pot of coffee a day!

Movement: Baby moves all the time. She is punching and kicking down, which explains why I told Scott that it seemed odd that all of my movement was so low.

Food cravings: nothing really.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Heartburn is rearing its nasty head, and mama is not a fan of sitting upright in bed to keep from feeling like my insides are on fire.

Gender: GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Labor signs: nothing

Symptoms: Well, the giant stomach is a dead giveaway.

Belly button in or out? still in, but I think I may have an outie by the end of this one.

Wedding rings on or off? On.

Happy or moody most of the time: happy

Looking forward to: Getting the walls put into the babies room so that I can actually start setting things up. Also, picking a darn name. I won’t be sharing, but I really have no clue what to name this poor baby girl.

It’s a….

I had my 20 week ultrasound today, and thanks to a wonderful person (Mr. Jeff) Scott was able to come with me. I was so grateful to have him there to laugh with and experience it all with.

Lean your head to the left. I don’t know why the picture is sideways. Anyway, here is our little peanut! The baby is perfect. I love that you can see the entire spine in this picture. The baby’s head is on my left side, and rear end is on my right side. The legs and arms are punching and kicking down (which is why I feel ALL of the movement there!) I am 19 weeks 6 days today, and the baby was measuring 21 weeks 4 days in a lot of the measurements. The girls were both “big” babies, so I am not at all surprised. Oh, you want to know what we are having?

I am the blessed mama of three little girls. I LOVE having two girls, and am so excited to have a third little one running around in a tutu. (Yes, my girls ASK to wear tutus a lot!) Even if she doesn’t want to wear tutus with her sisters, I am excited and feel overwhelmingly blessed to have another healthy baby!

19 weeks pregnant

How far along? 19 weeks

Baby is the size of: a mango

Total weight gain: I am not sure.

Maternity clothes? maternity pants and a few maternity shirts

Stretch marks? No new ones.

Sleep: same..

Worst moment this week: Today.. I just feel so exhausted and my head is pounding.

Best moment this week: Went on a date with my husband last week, and am glider rocker shopping! WOOHOO!

Miss anything? being thin. ha!

Movement: Movement has suddenly taken off this week! The baby moves all the time! Scott got to feel him or her move over the weekend!!!

Food cravings: Anything that won’t give me heartburn..

Anything making you queasy or sick: I tried to switch to regular prenatal vitamins, and they are making me feel really terrible. Iron and I don’t get along.

Gender: Don’t know

Labor signs: nothing

Symptoms: all pregnancy symptoms that exist lol

Belly button in or out? still in

Wedding rings on or off? On.

Happy or moody most of the time: crabby today, but I have been in a good mood on most days.

Looking forward to: 6 MORE DAYS UNTIL THE ULTRASOUND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

18 weeks pregnant

How far along? 18 weeks

Baby is the size of: a sweet potato (YUM!)

Total weight gain: I weighed myself at home after freaking out that I had already gained 12 pounds. I have only gained 8, so I am feeling MUCH better.

Maternity clothes? maternity pants, regular shirts.. but I am thinking it’s going to be all maternity soon. 😦

Stretch marks? No new ones.

Sleep: I am running out of words that mean I DON’T SLEEP WELL AT ALL.

Worst moment this week: Heartburn is rearing its ugly and unwelcome head again.

Best moment this week: I got to go get a haircut on Friday and it was really nice. Am I the only one who loves having someone else wash my hair? Nothing better than getting a head rub. 😉

Miss anything? Warm weather, and normal pants!

Movement: still just little ones.

Food cravings: I am just hungry ALL. THE. TIME.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Waking up in the middle of the night still sends me running for the bathroom. 😦

Gender: Don’t know

Labor signs: nothing

Symptoms: all pregnancy symptoms that exist lol

Belly button in or out? still in

Wedding rings on or off? On.

Happy or moody most of the time: feeling pretty happy.. only moody when I think about how terrible my sleep has been.

Looking forward to: Ultrasound in 13 days, and I am going on a DATE with my husband tonight!!!

17 weeks pregnant

How far along? 17

Baby is the size of: a turnip

Total weight gain: At my weigh-in yesterday, I had gained TWELVE pounds already.. I am hoping it only said that much because I had JUST eaten my lunch.. 😦

Maternity clothes? maternity pants, regular shirts

Stretch marks? No new ones.

Sleep: crummy

Worst moment this week: I’ve been trying to not focus on the negative, so I really don’t even know!

Best moment this week: We took the girls to Trader Joe’s and they loved pushing the little carts around and picking out fruits and veggies. 🙂

Miss anything? SPRING!!!!!!!!!! Warm weather.

Movement: Definitely feeling movements! 😀

Food cravings: right now.. donuts.. Tim Horton’s donuts..

Anything making you queasy or sick: If I don’t eat often enough I feel sick (could have something to do with that 12 pound weight gain.. )

Gender: Don’t know

Labor signs: nothing

Symptoms: nausea, kicks, EXHAUSTION.. oh, and the giant belly that everyone wants to rub!

Belly button in or out? In.. but already getting flat.

Wedding rings on or off? On.

Happy or moody most of the time: I have been much happier this week. 🙂 Life is only as fun as you make it!!

Looking forward to: The big “gender reveal” ultrasound in a few weeks!!

**I wrote about my nerves going into each appointment. On my way to the doctor’s office I actually was fighting tears back.. I don’t know why I get so emotional about it all, but I was really starting to feel the nerves and I just prayed for peace the whole way there. The doctor gets the Doppler all ready and puts it on my bare belly. Apparently baby felt it because he/she jabbed REALLY hard.. I mean, I JUMPED it startled me so much. Anyway, Dr. nice guy was moving the Doppler all over the place and was not finding anything. I could occasionally hear my own heartbeat through it, but not often. Normally, I would have started to panic, but I had just been karate chopped by the baby after all. The doctor finally says “This thing is not even doing what it is supposed to. I’ll be right back.” As soon as he comes back in, he finds the heart beat right away, and the baby sounds perfect. I am just thankful that God allowed me to feel that kick before things started to happen so that I was able to remain at peace the whole time.

Peace

I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow. With every pregnancy, I would get nervous before each appointment. Scott and I both were the same way. We would hold our breath and hold each others hand until we heard the baby’s heart beating away. Each time it was perfect and beautiful, but the fear of losing a baby was always the biggest fear for both of us.

With this pregnancy, the fear is a million times worse. My last pregnancy ended in sadness. I know what it feels like to be told the bad news. My children are all the Lord’s and He can call them home at any time. I am very thankful that that baby never had to know the pain that this world brings. But, my mother’s heart still aches to know who that child would have been. So, with this current pregnancy, the fear is very real.

Scott is unable to be at the appointments with me. I just sit in the cold office waiting for my doctor to come in. My heart pounds as the doctor asks me the usual questions. Then, it’s the big moment of “truth”. It feels like an eternity while they look for the heartbeat. It is so hard at this stage of pregnancy because you don’t feel constant movements. There isn’t really much reassurance that things are OK until you are at the office. As I was typing this, I felt it. I felt my baby move and reassure me, and tears are now streaming down my face.. Thank you, Lord.

My purpose in typing this was to ask for you to please pray for me tomorrow. The nerves are still going to be there. Things can change in an instant. No matter what happens, God is always good. God is in control. I want so badly to hold this baby and kiss those tiny little cheeks. I want to know this baby. But, if God choses to call him or her home before I get that chance, then He is STILL GOOD.

And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7